How did we get this far gone
How did I end up so low
My heart is pounding, mind racing
But my blood is starting to slow
Paralyzed in this moment
Not wanting to let go
Of the beautiful, broken memories
That made this empty house home
I can’t move
I see myself walk as a ghost
Through rooms that kept my secrets
Past walls filled with artwork I cherished the most
I can’t go backwards
Only forward and through
I’m leaping off a cliff on my own
All this space now and
No room for you
Yes it makes me sad
To read what I just wrote
But I know it’s the only way
I know it’s our only hope
Why did you do this
Why did I let you
Why didn’t I spend the time
Finding who I am, my own point of view
I’ve always been weak
When it comes to knowing myself
Always vulnerable to shoving my feelings
Back on a shelf
Wasn’t it right to self sacrifice
For love to compromise
Not when I’m being suffocated
Unsure of the truths, believing the lies
I think I told myself half of them
Honestly I don’t even know
Don’t even care right now
I never wanted this to show
The world thinks I’m crazy
But I know the truth
There is only one Hope
And it’s not believing in you
Its in me
I’m more than this structure could ever hold
And saying goodbye
Leads to stories untold
They deserve to be
I know there’s more
I hope I’m writing something that makes sense to someone who’s had to let go
I hope I appreciate this when I’m gray and old
I hope this house finds who it needs inside
I hope I find my broken self
Given up to God, taken by light
I know there’s more
Past these walls